Today was an interesting day, and am a little embarrassed to say, not one of my finest moments. I am completely out of medication and have been for several days. I mentioned I had been having withdrawals, and after sitting for 3 hours waiting to see the second doctor I was referred to, I was very stressed out, as was my wife. In my wife’s defense, she did miss a class today because of this appointment went wrong; I had no excuse for what happened next.
We had been getting the brush off from the nurses, and then my wife and I noticed the doctor trying to sneak past us out the door! My wife stopped her and told her of my situation. She said she could not help us! She didn’t even bother to tell her staff or us 3 hours ago! She said we had to see my original doctor, who I may have mentioned before, no longer has a license to dispense controlled substances, which is what I needed.
I lost my mind and yelled at her in front of the entire doctors office waiting room, not knowing she had an anxiety issue of her own. She mumbled and fled, and I was angry!
After yelling at the nurses, we sat and waited for my original doctor, who shall remain nameless. Remember, this is the woman who for years has ignored my pleas to help me taper off my medication. I was forced to do it on my own. She kept pushing Rivotril, which I had been on for over ten years, even though she knew it was a short-term drug.
Another hour passed, and we were finally admitted to see her highness. You can imagine how upset we were. As I sat, I had started feeling bad about yelling at the anxious doctor, so I was determined to remain quiet and let my wife do the talking.
Imagine my surprise when she played the innocent card and pretended that she had been trying to get me off the medication all along! She knew this drug was bad because all of her patients were addicted to it as well, and that’s why she willingly gave up her license!
The only thing we can figure is that she had a change of heart because she got in trouble and lost her license. She was trying to spin it like she was the hero saving all of her patients from addiction!
It turns out that I am at fault for being so weak as to follow what my doctor said and got myself addicted to psychiatric drugs. But, all I need was more of my other drugs to help me past my anxiety!
This soap opera is the reason why I have never trusted doctors.
A Funny Thing Happened on the Way Home
We had to stop on the way home, and I was sitting in the car, and this video caught my eye:
I’ve known for a long time that these drugs were bad, and my doctor has been playing me for years, but when you are mentally ill, you are taught never to question the doctor. It’s been a hard time breaking this habit, but I think I have tapered enough where I am just going to stop all my medications.
I talked it over with my wife, one of the few people I trust implicitly, and she agreed to help me by keeping an eye on me for any changes in my behavior.
So, as of Tuesday, June 5th, 2018, I am drug-free.
Wish me luck!
And Now for Some Fasting News!
As of right now (June 4th @ 6:56 pm) I am 18 hours into my 72-hour fast! I just drank some pink Himalayan salt, and I feel like a million bucks. The anxiety and stress of earlier have been fixed with chamomile tea, and I am settling in for a night of writing and playing with my daughter.
Here are my stats:
- Weight: 103.4 kilos (227.96 Lbs.)
- BMI – 31.13
- Length of Fast So Far– 18 hours
- Weight Lost – 1.1 kilos (2.43 Lbs.) – Again, much of this may be water weight.
I also started a pact with my good friend and advisor, Bob Martin. He said he would be there for to talk if I felt like I wanted to break my fast. I think it’s time I told you about Bob.
What About Bob?
A few years ago, Bob was 430 Lbs., had type two diabetes, and unknown to him, a bad heart. In 2016, he had a major heart attack and was forced to undergo bypass surgery to save his life.
After he had recovered, he decided that he needed to do something drastic to change his health. After finding Dr. Jason Fung on YouTube, he set out in 2017 to lose weight and be healthy. He fasted for a total of 200 days last year, at a keto diet, and lost 200 Lbs.! More importantly, he cured his type 2 diabetes, and his doctors tell him to keep up whatever he is doing because he is healthy!
He is on day 19 of his current fast and is on his way below 200 Lbs.; a weight hasn’t been since junior high school! If you want to check out his journey, read his blog, 430toFit.
It’s been a day I won’t forget for some time, and in a way, I’m glad it’s over. I am also very happy with how this fast is starting out, and if I hot hour 72 and am still feeling this way, I may continue longer!
Check back tomorrow to see who else gets yelled at and more on my journey to exceptional health.